Bible study starts in...two hours. I love the girls in my study, and I really believe the stuff I'm teaching can be life-changing. Except, here's the thing. Even though I know I'm supposed to be doing this study, I don't feel like I'm making much of a difference. The passion I had at the beginning has mostly dissapeared and I find myself constantly working on my lesson at the last minute.
Part of it is that I don't feel qualified. Why listen to me? Half the stuff I'm teaching I don't even apply in my own life. That's something I'm working to change, but it's hard to feel like a leader when I think I'm the one who needs leading. Yes, I'm leading a Bible study - but that is no indication of how my life is with God. Not at all. My spiritual life is so far from perfect and I feel like I'm the blind leading the blind.
So I'm trusting God to use something I say to maybe make some little impact on the girls in my study - and even more of an impact on me. I've seen Him use stupid things in my life before in pretty incredible ways, this isn't any different.
Well, God. I won't be like Moses.
"Here I am. Send me!"
Isaiah 6:8
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