Feelings

Ever since my Freshman year of high school I have had a desire to lead a Bible study.  Did I ever lead one during my four years in high school? No. I was too scared of being rejected and ridiculed, and that is one of my biggest regrets. The more I get to know myself the more I realize that I have to offer people. So I did it.

I took the plunge.

Now, this might not seem like the ideal time to begin leading a Bible study. Being a new RA and a sophomore, my plate is already pretty much overflowing. But if I've learned anything in the past few months about God, it is that if I trust Him enough to jump into the unknown knowing He's leading me, even if I have no idea what I'm doing, He catches me and carries me through.

He has never failed me.

So last night was the first study meeting.  It was me and four other girls, which was ideal for my expectations because I wanted to keep the study small.  Here's the thing about our study. I don't want to call it a "Bible Study" because technically we aren't actually studying a book in the Bible. I'll be teaching (teaching is a little strong...maybe sharing is a better word - I'm not much of a qualified teacher) from a book called Lies Women Believe. For some crazy reason, I turned the whole night into a very feelings-oriented deal. And from that, our name was born.

We don't call it a Bible study.

We call it Feelings.

God will never fail to amaze me with the sets of circumstances He places in my life to lead the places I wind up.  I was a little bit worried that no one would want to share and that the ideas I was bringing to the table would be rejected as stupid. However, God wasn't just working in my heart as Feelings began. Every girl shared so openly about her life. I couldn't believe it. Four girls and I, most of whom don't know each other very well were able to open and share about some of the hardest things they are dealing with right now. 

It was just an incredible blessing and encouragement to see the potential Feelings has, and I can't explain how greatful I am that God gave me the courage to lead this.

Let me encourage you now - if there is something in the back of your mind urging you to try something - maybe it isn't lead a study group, maybe it's forgiveness of someone who has hurt you, maybe it's to get rid of something in your life - whatever.

Act on it.

Don't wait four years to act on it until you are sure it is a "safe" time to do it.

Feelings is focused on uncovering lies we believe as women, and as we do that, we are discovering the chains we have in our lives that are keeping us from being free.

Don't wait to be free from whatever makes up your chains now.

God has freedom for you now.

That's what my Feelings group is reaching for -  you can reach for it too.