If I could stand without wavering.

What would my life be like if I didn’t question my call from Jesus? If I truly believed all the time that I am perfect in every way, that I am where God wants me to be, that I have a special purpose.

Some days, like today, I’m feeling like everyone else has a more important calling than me. Okay, truth, that is kind of a lie. If I am honest enough to admit to it, I really am thinking that people aren’t giving me enough attention for my call.  A friend of mine has a sweet blog full of deep and spiritual stuff, and here I am writing about day care.  Another friend is starting a Bible study this Fall, and I’m thinking what the heck, why are all my friends doing things that seem so much more important and reaching so many more people? Even the people I follow on Twitter seem to have more spiritual Tweets than I do! Ridiculous, I know, but it still gets to me.

Then I have to be honest with myself -  I am doing things. The problem is that I have a huge pride issue. I like recognition. Frequently, and lots of it. I like people to tell me that what I’m doing for Jesus is a big deal, that I am doing incredible things.

But guess what, Hannah? That’s not what your call is. It isn’t to let the world know how great you are.  Your call is to let everyone you come in contact with know what the grace and love of Jesus is all about. Screw you and your stupid pride, it gets you in trouble every time. Screw that pride to the sticking point and leave it there. Hang it on the cross. Jesus did not die so you could keep carrying your stupid pride around on your own shoulders.

Jesus died for me so I could nail my pride to the cross and be free from it.


..All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because,
"God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's might hand, that he may lift you up in due time.
1 Peter 5:5-6